Break the pattern:
There are no set of rules to do stuff, It’s okay if you start fresh, it’s okay if you want to write 500 words article than 1200 just keep writing just keep doing stuff what you wish to do.
Thoughts are the just suggestion:
You think good bad every second, not necessarily follow everything so stop burdening your thoughts on yourself, don’t stop yourself to do things which you are not doing just because you think you can’t do.
Do not judge yourself on the ground of the world. Your job is to do best in the present moment so keep working and ask for feedback and keep improving.